ahhhh

it seems like this morning brings about a sense of normalcy and routine, which is refreshing. the past few weeks weeks have been roller coaster of mountains, valleys, everything in the middle back and forth over and over quickly rise quickly fall emotional weeeee ride with little to no sleep. from the two to three weeks of contractions and seeing the pain in loves face at every one and wishing that it would just stop or lessen and wishing that theo would just come out and then the contractoins would pick up and it would be go time and then it wouldnt and then it would again. love was so sweet and amazing and patient throughout the whole thing. she behaved much better than i did i think. there were several points in which i was losing it and would start to get frustrated and then id feel like a total tool because im not the one in pain and im supposed to be the strong one for support and yadda yadda. and then i believe every time she says it hurts and i believe every time she says hes coming today and i understand but at the same time...
and then there is the infamous uncle prayer/prophesy that shes conjuring up contractions in order to get attention which i had a real problem with as evidenced by short story. kind of funny as soon as i really let it go that afternoon, we had him that night. and once he came and is so angelic and perfect and just being able to hold him and look at him and watch him fatten up this past week has been so good. and everybody has been so cool about giving us clothes and money and helping with the girls and excited about him and all of the updown drama is worth it times a billion cause hes an awesome little theodore welcome, theodore buckland esquire, sweaty teddy, teddybear, ted, ted the ned,theodorable, theodorkus, buster brown, little mister, junior, theodore roosevelt, theo, mr huxtable. and to see the girls accept him and love him and "tooch his nose" and help with diapers and running to get blankets and towels and it just seems like our little crandallclan is complete. perfect and complete.